precognition's curse

I used to take pride but
things are not how they were

now i cant even say my prayers

those epiphanies and manifestations

the more i had those the better

at least thats what i thought

i'd say "got it all in here"

and so i chose to just be

ignoring second guesses

instead i invite more guests

"live in the moment'' read that somewhere

held on to that simply cuz

I like the way it sounds

truth is

that's not a direction

in fact its some phantasm

excuses for myself

to not budge at all and as time goes

the so called lines that were drawn
some slowly fade
and some aren't lines no more

these intentions and decisions

they're all but the same knives
though i admit its supposed to

be not as sharp

but hey knives are knives

still will leave a mark
some just stains but some are
permanent scars